| WTF is wrong with me!!! |
[Tuesday
March 7,
2006'''12;10am] |
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I don;t know whats wrong with me I really don't. All of a sudden I am acting liek the biggest jackass too allt he people I care about and its eating me up inside literally. It's liek I feel have have to be mena and rude and obxnious to everyone, and I knwo what I'm doign and I don't want to do it, but I do it anyway. I feel like I want to kill my self right now over some of the things I've said. I'm so god damn sorry to everyone espically Jackie who I was espically hard on, and I hate what I'm doing and whta I'm sayign and you and everyone else will never know how sorry i really am. My life sucks right now and I just don't knwo what to do or how to act, I 've forgotten who I am. I'm lost and I'm sorry.
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[Monday
March 6,
2006'''10;23am] |
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I had a huge weekend, i wnet from wtareloo, to hamilton to drop stuff off at mohawk, then to conestoga in kitchner, and then i got lost for a few hours and managaed to get home with a sliver of gas left in the tank, now i gotta go back to conestoga thursday afetr school for an interview and on March 31st i'm going to a raptors game, but before that i have to go to humber in toronto at 9am, I can't believe applyign to colleges would be so hard maybe everybody has it right by staying another year, i swear theres only a handful of people that i know who are actually going to college/university. augh can't wait to leave this town. yawn anywya peopel post comments abut random stuff or about this
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| SWEET!! |
[Tuesday
February 14,
2006'''8;01pm] |
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I'm feeling great right now, My documentary abotu wrestlign si coming along great its going to be awesome
I'm feeling a lot better about my relationship situation and I actually am feeling better like I think I;m good with what happened.
and best yet my Curling team is going to BAA finals Tuesday, we played today and won it was a huge win haha, i know its just curling but we played and swept are asses off and deserve to go so its so much better.
Life is good right now except for school but thats not important
I went to Niagara college and met this really hot and really cool girl to she was awesoem, and the school definatly is one I really want to go to, I could get some kool stuff done with it. Other then that I'm gonna help Hilary with her music video at least an idea for it and yea I hear brittany has a new hair color so i'll probably check that out later, My friend Kevin was up from St. Thomas that was fun and me and my Friend Katrina are possibly going skiing, um then I'm off to curling Bonspiel in Elmira Saturday should be great stuff.
Then going to London for Scott tournamnet of Hearts(big pro curlign Tournety)...at least my mom amd dad and brother are, I'm going to go say hi and party with my friend Dana at Western....so im good mood right now
Plus Christian won the NWA World Heavy Weight Championship in wrestling Sunday killer stuff right there
So I hope my grammer is better and I'll see yea all later
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| Another Apology |
[Sunday
February 5,
2006'''9;49pm] |
Hey Brittany
I'm sorry I amde you angry with what I said, but you were buggin me abotu what you were sayign abotu my other friend so I had to stick up for her. You seemed pretty pissed and I didn't think it would amke you that made. I'm sorry
And I had fun on Friday night at the movies and hope to do it again sometime. and It might work
don't you love secret messages to people
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| I don't know what it is |
[Tuesday
January 31,
2006'''7;07pm] |
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I don't know what it is but I suddenly feel happy and good i don't know why, I mean I didn't take any drugs what in the blue hell is going on
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[Monday
January 30,
2006'''7;48pm] |
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fuck! i'm gettign stressed out this month with everythign thats happend and now College application and report cards comign up and assignments due this is just getting out of control. The college applications are in and most require you to write an essay and test and grammer, then i got to go to niagra on the 11 to for that humber sen tme some stuff and i don't knwo what teh hell to do it with and i got an english essay due tommroow that going to go to my report card which is in 2 weeks and i'm nto sure its going to be very good, but i really don't want to to the essay. Oh my life is horrible oh woe is me
btu besides the increasing stress evrythign else is mild so althoguh it doens't balance out it'll be alright(fingers crossed)
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[Wednesday
January 25,
2006'''4;48pm] |
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I just figured out why i say those stupid things I say and its really something
Now this might seem overconfident btu I think its because I think way to fast, for my own good. I think to fast so wht come out of my mouth is not always correct and sometimes just unneccesary. Thats why when my body is tired my mind can think straight, where as apposed to my body being full of enegry my mind is overloaded which leads to majority of the time a headache, and sayign stupid thing. but this also can be cause by a increase of heat liek i'm feeling right now ow...
now ain't taht sumthing,
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| this is a joke |
[Tuesday
January 24,
2006'''4;26pm] |
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anyone want to go on a date soem tiem I'm totally free right nwo and i'm so bored
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[Monday
January 23,
2006'''12;21pm] |
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what is new, i'm bored, i'm going to skip class today philosphy sucks plus its a school buy out so no body is i' assuming going to be there, seattle vs. Pittsburgh in the superbowl go Pittsburgh, how was your party hillary abd brittany happy b-day by the way wish i could have come, lets see leafs suck they lost 7-0 lol so great, Royal Rumble this weekend it should be good i'm looking forward to it, and yea i'm applyign to colleges tommorow yippee it shall be fun...i guess thats it there was no family guy or simpsons last night which pissed me off so ya now i'm angry i'll leave now bye see ya l8ter
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[Monday
January 16,
2006'''11;36pm] |
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I'm havign truble gettign to bed lately and i don't knwo why maybe i shouldn't have stayed up so late durign the holidays now my whole system is whack, I'm determined to get into shape this year and i'm going to be goign to swimming everyday and then some then abs and then running...petra(maybe), what else lots of homwk is due school sucks can't wait for it to be over, we were givne are graduating comment cards and I can't think of a damn comment so if anybody has anythign that'd be great, p.s i knwo its cheating but who cares and y thats about it ta ta for now
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| tha year of |
[Saturday
January 14,
2006'''6;36pm] |
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So the yera of 2006 has staretd off pretty crappy with various thigns happenign um one beignt he break up but i finally told jackie ho i felt and i feel a lot better about it so that great, lots of tests and essays are due coming back to school which is a huge kick in the balls, The wrestling show went great and the footage i got for my documentary was awesome and my back still kinda hurts from it, um the new years party was messed it just seemed i dunno i had a headache and I wasn't all there, i need to start gettign rides to these thigns so i can drink at them, hmmm what else, last nigth was weird becasue onyl one person got drunk and that was the whole evening, and ya the start as nto been the greatest but I'm lookign forward tot his summer and travellign vivistign friends and family this summer starting new and fresh, and just focusing a bit more on school doing well, and excersie and get ripped...well nto ripped but at leat get some abs and muscle of some sort and last but not least having fun most of all.
And to jackie we had a good/great 14 months and I wouldn't change a god damn thing thanks for the memories
and that is the end of this LJ i hope you all enjoyed
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| If I were to Lay down |
[Monday
January 2,
2006'''1;22pm] |
If I were to lay down today or tonight would I be happy
would I be content if it all ended now?
In a world full of sex,violence,death, destruction and over population
would I close my eyes and be okay
With everything I've done to others and my self
with the pressure of what feels like the world on my shoulders could I lay down and sleep?
If I were to sleep would I want to wake up
Would I want to witness the world again
If I were to lay down, would it be okay?
If I were to lay down in my bed, fall asleep and never wake up, would it be okay!
If I were to Lay down dying in a street or in my bed
would I die happy?
Would I be happy?
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| Happy New Year |
[Sunday
January 1,
2006'''12;25am] |
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Happy New year everybody i hoep evrey oens new year went well, I wne tot a party and people got smashed and puke and sex and alchol and weed, and I got a major ass headache. I got to film my documentary tommorow which should be fun sinc e I'll be half dead when I get there so tired, anyway I miss you jackei and I hope your New YEars was good*Muah* bye evreybody
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| now on to new years |
[Thursday
December 29,
2005'''8;30pm] |
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hey hope evryone had a good x-mas if you didn't cheer up life will go on and i'm sure it will get better, I got family guy, a couple of dvds, my gf got me the Seether cd and knited me a scarf which was awesome. I wne tot see the ringer on monday with jackie but it was in owen sound so we saw Dick and Jane which was a pretty good movie, then i showed her where i used to live in owen sound we almost got lost but not quite and we went shopping um what did anyoen el;se get fell free to tell me. I'm not sure what I'm doing Newyears night so fi anyone as anythign goign on let me know, and then sundya I go to the wrestlign school thign which shoudl be excellent best part is its all gonan eb on film so ya check ya later peace bye
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| oh juicy |
[Thursday
December 22,
2005'''10;28pm] |
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Okay x-mas is near and it shoudl be good I alreayd have seen have the gifts I've gotten and i'm lookign forward to it, I made Jackie a shirt with cookie monster and oscar the grouch on the back it was great she loved it that made me happy now shes making me something so that should be great, me and her are goign to the Taste of Chaos Tour in London on April 12th and were hoping to stay the night at my nana and papas for the night should be good, I'm also goign to the local indy badn concert in Kincardine tommorow at the aztec with my friends, it starts at 7 and it should also be good I knwo a lot of the people playing and its $10 at the door. um what else we won in curlign today so we now have a record of 2-2 and the 2 games we lost we should have won, christmas assembly tommorow my classes movies should be funny, i need new razor blades for my Gilltte 3000 my other ones are too dirty and i'm not gettign a close enough shave ah well, I was todl a really groos story so if anyone wants to knwo abotu it let me know and I'll post it i must warn you it is really gross so ya oeac and good tiding merry X-mas happy holidays whatever ya celebrate good bye
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| a prediciment |
[Monday
November 28,
2005'''6;39pm] |
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Okay so I need help peoepl I need some help chooisng a name for my documentary film, its basically me gogint oa wrestlign show and mini wrestlign camp so if you got suggestions thats be great now go!
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[Saturday
November 26,
2005'''12;42pm] |
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whats up people f*ing snow eh, its so hard to driev in it with a standard with no 4 wheel drive, i hate people who drive 60 on the highway when its nto even supremely bad, um Christmas is comign and i expect everybody to get me something jk but ya the family guy move dvd would eb cool or a PS2 either or ya know i still gotta get my picture taken with santa I gotta go apply at Tracys their lookign for a dishwasher right now and i'm not gettign any hours at Ship wrecks so it'll be good I'll probably work during my spares and the odd week night but nothign ding on a Friday Saturday or Sunday well unless its at liek 6 till close or 9-7 that wya i still got time to do shit, anywya saw War of the Worlds kick ass movie and makign cds and gettting ready to do my storyboards for media, 4 day weekend yahoo peace
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| wow am i ever bored |
[Wednesday
November 2,
2005'''10;56am] |
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hey I'm bored so I'll do an update thingy, Leafs suck which is great this year, I went out for halloween Swimming started this morning 6:45 in the morning yipee!, Jackie has gone to look a at a few campuses I hoep she had fun and is feeling better, and dance and the rocky horror picture show both were awesome...I really need to learn to dance, I got a 92% on my english short story which I'm really rpud of and I'm currently trying to think of an idea to in which to make a documentary film about so if ya got any ideas let me know anyway i'm done peace bye
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| The Good the bad and the for the love of god relax |
[Tuesday
October 4,
2005'''8;33pm] |
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Okay so I celebrated a year with Jackei this weekend, shes so cute, and I got her a really nice black heart silver lining necklace, and saw the Jacket(rip off of Butterfly Effect) and went and had chinese food for dinner. I am goign to go and try otu for the boys hockey team at KDSS practices start next week and I don't know what time so that could pose a problem. The Spike Tv premiere of TNA Wrestling was killer I can't wait to get the Bound for Glory Pay Per View. Hockey Start tommorow and I'm picking Philly vs. Calgary with Philly winning the stanely cup. what else is goign on lets see The newspaper is in shambles right now with peopel not handing anythgn in or coming to meetings so I don't know how thats gonna work right now, I finished mine and Corys movie for english media it looks good a lot of panning shots and I made the music and it seems to go fairly well with it we still need a sunset shot though to end it, I'm goign to Wonderlan saturday and then my family is havign Thanx-mas, yippe presents. I have to film the Robotics Team and I don't want to (sob) its sooo much money and soooo boring whine complain my lfie is horibble argH!
which leads me to my next pint, every time I got on LJ all I read is peopel bicthign abotu how everybody fucks them over, life is horrible, How can I take oh woe is me...get over your fuckign selves, Life is hard for evreybody, but most oif us can get trhough with ot and deal with it so poepel calm down breath and relax a little let loose and have some fuckign fun jeez, and thats my little rant
a buh bye
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| Whats the deal with me |
[Sunday
September 18,
2005'''3;40pm] |
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My gf told me that, she wanted a break and so we said okay, that didn't work out and were still goign out just a few things are a bit rocky still, and I think they are from my end, i'm just pretty damn confused On the whole subject right now. I still like her a lot but thats all it is I just like her a lot, we saw Transporter 2 which was a pretty killer movie good solid action film, she told me about her dance and how she went all crazy and shit, wish I had been there hmmmm what else,nothing much I gotta read a story in english called dreams, and since all of the stories we've read before have sucked I'm sure this will be no different, I might be able to get all of Monday off which could be good or bad depending on how thigns work out, WWE Unforgivin is tonight and I'm looking forward to some new champions being named, what else ripely fall fair this weekend, I'm driving down to pick up my gf and her sister and were going to go to the fair, which should be fun.(sarcasm) and hmmm what else I gotta do some stuff for the school newspaper as well, and even that I'm confused abotu whats goign on and I'm partly runnign it, or at least I think I am?? lol I told you I was confused
so to conclude life sucks, relationship is on the rocks, I'm confused about everything, and I don't knwo what to do about it.
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